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Friday, February 11, 2011

My Name Is Kelly And I Am A Control Freak!


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My name is Kelly and I am a complete Control Freak.... There I said it!!!! Those who know me well will no doubt be nodding their heads in agreement.... But I do have to say that last night - God gave me a little kick... He wanted me to cool my jets.. Get over myself... My "controllingness" my new word and I like it was getting out of control and He wanted me to "look in the mirror"....

Yesterday was a bad day on the home school front... Because this on-line schooling is still new to my kid me the pacing (things that need to be completed by X day) was off.. My kid was having a hard time understanding an algebra equation - (there was no way I could help her...) She met with the teacher - understood it - did not take notes - then proceeded to forget how to solve the problem... Several hours were spent on her math and then she needed to complete several other quizzes/tests/assignments that are all due by today.... Poor thing she was frustrated... I was frustrated.. My control problem raised its very ugly head... SHE NEEDED TO CATCH UP... Instead of allowing her to go at her pace.. Instead of trusting her to try it on her own.. I got in the middle of it and pushed... I did not give her the chance to rise to the occasion herself.. Because of my control freak nature... I contributed to her levels of stress... and that is something that is NOT acceptable.... I need to back down... I need to stop... NOW!

While I was in the bathroom (come on - we all read while we wee) - There was book in the magazine rack called "What Does The Bible Say About...." I opened it - not looking for anything specific... I had a little time to.. well you know.. And the page I opened to said this: "Do you give others (relatives, friends, and co-workers) not only the responsibility but the needed authority to get the job done - even if it means seeing it done their way instead of yours?" This peaked my interest and I knew my answer to this question was undoubtedly "NO".. The book went on to tell me that Jesus had more reasons to avoid delegating - yet He sent out 70 workers with full appointment to preach and heal on His behalf.... In doing so, Jesus affirmed the often heard but less often practiced concept of people and their development as the most important task of a manager/mother/parent... Of course, He gave the 70 workers detailed instructions before He sent them off... But a study of His discipleship methods shows that He was just as concerned with their growth as He was that the task be accomplished a certain way... When the 70 workers returned - they returned "with joy" excited by their experiences.. They would never be the same....

I realized in that moment in the bathroom - that I was making her education.. her decisions.. her grades.. her tasks.. her everything.. I made them about me... I was making it personal.. I was trying to control her to be "perfect".... and God knows I am so far from perfect.... so why would I put that kind of pressure on my kid.... Okay - God.. I hear you....

13 comments:

  1. Stopping by from the blog hop! New follower here! Come visit me! :)

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  2. Okay, I'm laughing out loud at the name of your blog. Too funny and describes so many of us Lol!

    Thanks for finding me, I'm happy to be following you back.

    Happy Friday!

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  3. Thanks for visiting my blog today! I'm following you back.

    Donna
    http://potofgoldgiveaways.blogspot.com/

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  4. Thanks for stopping by and following The Small Town Mom. I am now following you!
    Happy Friday!
    Tara

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  5. Thanks for stopping by my blog! I'm now following you! :)

    April
    Mama on a Green Mission

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  6. I think that's the kind of thing we have to hear over and over again.

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  7. Thanks for visiting my blog, following back!

    ~Darcy @ Tales From the Nursery
    www.darcyandbrian.com

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  8. Hi there...First, I love your blog! Second, I am a control freak too and I hate it! Third, I love Twilight so love your widget...in fact I am stealing it...well, not stealing it but going to put it on my blog too...and Fourth, I am so glad you came to follow so that I could follow back. Have a great weekend!

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  9. Kelli I know what you meant by this post. I too wanted my kids to do well with their school work to the point it was turning into mine school work. Then I had a parent give me the best advice though I don't think she realized that she was giving me advice. I was in a parent conference with this parent, several of us talking to her about our concerns about how her child is doing in school. The topic of homework came up. I forget why but what that parent said became my matra when working with my children. She told us how she tells her son that it's his homework not hers because she had already gone through the fifth grade and he hadn't.
    It was her way of saying it's his responsablity to do his work, not hers.
    He's now a successful computer programer for a major company in my area.

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  10. Thanks for following my blog. Control freaks unite! LOL...Loved this post, really hit home to me. Newest follower.

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  11. Ohhh this was so good to read. (a little painful though lol)

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  12. Very well thought out. I'm not sure I would have been that willing to accept the truth...because my name is Sandra, and I too am a control freak.
    A wise woman told me when my oldest was a small baby, "Don't have an agenda for your child. It will only make you both miserable." So now you and her have words that will resonate in my head for years to come.

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  13. I saw a little of me in that post. Sometimes the hardest thing we have to do, is let our kids learn the hard way.

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