Tuesday, April 14, 2009
The Love Dare Day 40
Today is Day 40 of The Love Dare. It's been a wonderful adventure. Tonight I told my husband that my 40 days are up and that tomorrow I will revert to be my "old self" his answer was..It's the Four hundred day love dare....didn't you know??? I asked him if he sees a difference and he said he sees a big difference. I told him I loved him again...I know he isn't quite where I am due to the fact, I that he was the recipient of years and years of negative and hateful behavior from me... I know that it will take time to heal his wounded heart. I am thankful that he has forgiven me and he wants our marriage to be strong... I know it is possible to love and forgive through the pain.
Today I was to write new marriage vows.. I think it would be better to wait. Wait until Dusty's pain is completely gone. Wait until we can do it up right. I went into this Love Dare with high hopes but in the back of my mind thinking no way would it work...We were doing that bad! But praise God... I have a husband, I love again and there is peace in the family...of course it's not perfect...nothing here on Earth is ...but for us it might as well be...
I have learned to lead my heart. Whatever you pour time, money, and energy into will draw your heart. This was true before Dusty and I were married. We wrote letters, bought gifts, and spent time together as a couple, and our heart followed. Somewhere along the way, I stopped investing in Dusty..investing in us. Now that I have learned the basic tools to my heart/mind. I have also learned that loving is a choice... and I choose Love.
Proverbs 23:19 Direct your heart in the way.