Today I Will Wallow - Tomorrow I Will Move On...

Do you ever wonder when you will get a break? You know the kind where something just goes your way... No drama... No waiting... No problem... No raised hopes only to be burned to the ground... Today - I am really angry and I will wallow....

This is what I am angry about: A few weeks ago - an executive from a company in my husband's field - discovered that my husband was available... He called the husband and started selling hard on a position that just become available... He said that he knew my husband for the past 23 years.. knew that he would be perfect for it.. He said that it was His decision on who to hire... He said he wanted the husband out there immediately to meet (not interview) all the team players.... After the last interview - we were told he had great feedback and he'll have an offer by the end of the week -whether it was verbal or written... That was in April... All of a sudden - the executive emails the husband and states that he is really sorry but he has to interview a couple of internal candidates (they posted the job after my husband was contacted - company policy to post) and to hang tight - the hiring will be pushed back 2 weeks... So our life has been virtually on hold - due to the fact that we were made to believe this was basically a done deal after the last interview.... and it would be a waste of time for the husband to interview the other leads he had going... Big mistake....

Today received an email - saying that a decision has not been made yet but..... the internal candidates look really good and the company prefers to hire from within if possible... Now - I completely understand this part.... What makes me angry is that why did he not interview the internal candidates first by following the company policy and if he wasn't happy with that selection then have my husband go out... What I am angry about is the husband was told that he was the choice.. and now he may not be.... It's not the job - I am angry about - it's the wasted time... the raised up hopes of possibly moving 2000 miles away...

I know I am suppose to say things like - God knows what's best for us... (I have said it many times) and He does... But that doesn't make me less angry... or frustrated... The husband still might get the job.. who know...? But today - I am going to wallow in my anger - so tomorrow I will be done and I can move on and help the husband to move on.. I need to be strong for him... I need to be steadfast.... I need to be supportive... I need to look up.... We I just need a break....

Are We Staying Or Going????

We are on week two (2) of "Are We Staying In California or Are We Going To Tennessee" It's funny the peaks and valleys you hit when you are waiting for something.... When you are waiting for an answer that can potentially change your life.....

Last week I decided to stop watching the pot... I decided to stop thinking about it... Of course that is much easier said than done... Especially when you have a husband that does not know how to sit still... So far - he has cleaned out our three (3) car garage... he has cleaned out the game room..... His side of the closet... and today - he has tackled the kitchen pantry and cabinets.... If anything else - I will have a very organized home after this.....

What drives me crazy is trying to read into messages... What I mean by this - is that - When this whole process started - the hiring guy was selling my husband on the benefits of working for his company and living in the South.... We had never in our wildest dreams ever thought about or considered living in the South... not by a long shot.... But you know what, after the selling and the husband spending a week out there he was sold... He warmed to the idea.... The husband was the ONLY candidate and that was great until........

Company politics entered the picture.... Okay - now - the company had to post the position - of course we understand that... The hiring guy was obviously bummed about this change of events and advised the husband to hang on tight for the next couple of weeks.... Due to the fact three (3) applicants have applied for the position..... It is very difficult for hubby to even think about continuing the job search.... he has decided to wait it out and see what happens.... It's hard to apply and interview for other positions when there is a strong possibility that you will be hired for a different one.... It's hard to present yourself to other potential employers when your mind is on another opportunity....

Today - We He got a message from his potential employer basically stating that the interviews are taking place this week and they will be going through the same interview process that he had and that the hiring guy should have more of an answer by the end of the week... Okay -now I am trying to read between the lines... looking for clues... Yes, I have completely gone insane... Don't you just Hate Not knowing?????

This Is Where We Are....

As many of you know we were suppose to have news last Friday on the husband's new job opportunity.... This is where we are.....

He interviewed a week ago last Thursday, Friday, Monday, and Tuesday.... The Feedback was very promising.. he was very well received.. I may not have told you that the person doing the hiring has known my husband professionally for over twenty (20) years and he was so fired up that the husband was available that he had him come out before the job was posted on the company job board... or whatever you call the online postings nowadays... After all the interviews and after all the traveling... and after all the excitement... My spouse was told he had to apply on line... umm okay....

So now... there are 3 applicants that have applied and company policy requires them to be interviewed... Things are still looking very good.... But now instead of a few days of waiting.. We are looking at a minimum of two (2) weeks of waiting.... We are very excited about the possibility of moving to the South... I'm treating it like a new adventure.... The kids are also excited... If husband of mine does not get the job - of course we will be disappointed but that would be okay too... (I keep telling myself that) You know - how it is when you get so fired about something and it doesn't happen... you are bummed but you continue to the next thing...

I want to say that I'm being a Pollyanna about this.... But in all honesty - I am irritated .. I don't like being in limbo... I don't like to wait... I have never been a patient person... My cousin recently read my status on Facebook - Which said... "Delays.. delays.. delays.. I hate delays.. 2 weeks worth of more delays..." his comment to me was "Obviously God thinks you need to work on patience.." I'm beginning to think He does....

I have decided to NOT watch the pot the next two (2) or more weeks... I am going to continue working... I am going to do some major Spring cleaning - throwing out, giving away, and selling stuff we no longer use.... I am going to prepare my field for the rain....... (ie: get the house ready for a possible sale...) and if the rain does not come... at least the house will be less cluttered...

** photo from flickr